I haven’t showered in over two days. I’m sitting in my living room sporting a deliciously smelling face mask while I watch a Girls marathon. I want a new job and I want to make more money and live in a small apartment with two cats and my really beautiful girlfriend. I need to get my shit together and start my life and maybe actually go to nursing school. My face smells good and I wish I could make out with my girlfriend everyday because she’s a really good kisser but she lives 700 miles away and her mother hates me. What is my life?
2012 was the best year of my life. I got a really great paying job at Florida Hospital, I got over my social anxiety and became more of an extrovert, I turned 21, I started going to the gym again, and I spent this entire year focusing on myself and I finally grew a backbone and stopped letting people walk all over me. This year I finally stood up for myself. But most importantly, this year I started talking to an amazing woman, this year I drove 700 miles to see that amazing woman and this year I realized how madly in love I am with that same amazing woman. This year I felt the “it” that everyone is always searching for. In 2012 I found love, I fell in love and I found someone who makes me so very happy. Hopefully in 2013 I’ll have more pet cats and fall deeper in love. Happy New Year, everyone.
I miss my girlfriend, day one. And I still can’t get through more than ten seconds of our videos without starting to cry. I wish I wasn’t home. The love bruises she left on my neck are now fading and I woke up this morning wondering if it was all just a dream. I don’t want to be without her forever.